Secret Six: I waited for you to show up and object...

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"I waited for you to show up and object. But you never came."

Point of view: Women, recently married
Issue: Clearly hoped someone in particular would intervene at her wedding and prevent her from going through with it

Elements on page include: photos from the wedding, past emails to the man, self directed questions etc

Follows a young women who proir to her wedding day was having an affair with another man whom she fell in love with and was at least led to believe that he cared for her also. After saying she would leave her fiance for him, he became apparently distant. Too scared to call off the wedding and be left on her own she attends her wedding only to be disappointed when he does not arrive and object to her marrying another man.

Secret Five: When I said goodluck, I didn't mean it

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"When I said "Goodluck", I didn't mean it. I can't stand it when you do better than me."

Point of view: Brother to a successful, graduating sibling
Issue: Resentful of their sisters successful and how proud the parents are of them as a result.

Elements on page include: photo together at graduation, pulling faces at a party, congradulations card - what he wanted to write/what he did write, graduation bear and flowers

Follows a resentful and bitter brother who hates his sister for her success whilst he struggled through high school and life and she graduates as a lawyer and is the apple of her families eye.

Secret Four: I whispered to her...

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"I whispered to her that it was ok to give up. But I wish she hadn't listened."

Point of view: A grand daughter

Issue: feels responsible some how for her grandmothers death but not encouraging her to fight on

Elements on page include: hospital bed, text messages from friends, funeral flowers, photos of granddaughter and grandmother.

Essential follows a regretful and upset girl who wishes she never "encouraged" her grand mother to give up the fight and ultimately feels partly responsible for her passing away, not coping at all well with the loss. Aside from a hand written "what did I do?" all text comes from others messaging her to represent her silent, grief and inability to function after the passing of her grandmother.

Secret Three: Every once in a while...

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"Every once in a while I'll write you a letter. But I'm still too scared to send it."

Point of view: a young girl

Issue: wants to met her real mother but is scared that if she does her fantasies of what it will be like, will be ruined

Elements on page include: letter to mother, diary entry, ballet shoes, photograph of mother dancing, framed photograph of the mother, crumbled piece of the past letters writen and not sent

A young girl who has never met her mother but is old enough to know who she is, idolises her and watches her dance, as she is apparently a famous ballerina. She girl knows her mother gave her up for her career and hasn't made an effort to contact since but still she attends her mothers shows and practices ballet so that they might one day meet and dance together and be happy. Despite her happy fantasies there is still that element of fear that her mother will not like if she meets her, or as to why she didn't wish to keep her in the first place and so the girl never sends the letters that she writes and they wind up crumbled about her room. The only photo which she has of her mother is framed and keep aside a photo of her mother dancing in one of her shows.

Secret Two: I will never be her...

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"I will never be her. And I just wish that didn't matter to you so very much."

Point of view: A young women, properly later teens to early 20s
Issue: The boyfriend appears to care still and more for his ex, constantly placing her needs and wishes above his current girlfriend

Elements on page include: photos of him and ex together, photo of him and her together, diary entries, rhetorical questions, list of differences etc

This is a powerful secret of an incredibly sad and broken person given that if this is her fear then she likely stays, feeling trapped or blinded by her feelings for the guy. The secret expresses how the boyfriend will do things and she'll find connections between his actions and the last girlfriends wishes. Its hard to see clearly, given it's from the girlfriends point of view whether she is simply feeling insecure or whether she is just in her concern. Regardless the boyfriend appears to do little to calm her fears. I took typical slip ups such as the phone (not deleting or recieve suspect messages from an ex) or forgetting who likes what (take one girl to a show she hates because the last one liked it) and added them to the page to give a sense of reality.

Secret One: I'm tired of people telling me...

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"I'm tired of people telling me that young love is pointless. Because I don't care if it is or not."

Point of view: Of a young couple who are in love

Issue: people telling them there is no point to their relationship. That is wont last forever.

Elements on page include: Photos together, pressed flowers, hand holding, text messages

This is mostly a joint secret between a young couple. The issue it centres on is how 'childhood sweethearts' don't always end up together further down the line and that a young person can not truely be in love given that they do not possess the experience to fully understand what love is. I attempted to express the couples affection towards one another through imagery and initimate texts spending over a couple of months of their relationship. The images are brighter than in most of the other secrets to express the 'happiness' within this particular secret.

Some general important information...

Having left things a little later than planned I've decided to alter the site from Seven Secrets to Six Secrets as it's taking me longer than I thought to create the images which I want for my site. The idea is from each of the pages the viewer will be able to infer information about the person's who's secret it is - not only their rough age and gender but also giving a glimpse into their lives through understanding a certain part of it which is most important and secret to them. Thus the viewer can see a little glimpse into who this person is.

Each image contains little sections which become clearer or brighter when the viewer rolls over them so that they can piece together the individuals secret. Yet each image needs to be taken in slowly and thoughtfully, so that the sometimes subtle under meanings won't be lost.

The navigation of the site goes Intro>>Main page>> Select a secret>>enter into the secret

For my intro I am making a short flash animation to a edited version of "Requiem of a Dream" by Clint Mansel. The majority of the images used on my sight belong to me or my friends, with some images obtained from stock website, though have primarily been vastly altered regardless.

More secrets

The following is a list of the secrets which will be presented in the intro into my site. The intro will be done in flash and will just be a simple animation to help express the atmosphere and content of the site:

“I love him, but the thrill of something new is too much to pass up.”

“Sometimes I wish it would break, because if I got her pregnant, I’d be in her life forever.”

“I know what you did isn’t meant to hurt, because I always said I didn’t care. But I did and it does. And it still kills me that you left.”

“I printed out every photo of us together and stored them in a box. I found that box the other day and burnt it because of what you did.”

“Ive worked at my job for nearly two years. And I still don’t know what I’m doing there.”

“Apparently I’m meant to work out exactly who I want to be before I finish high school
40 days to go, and I still don’t have a clue.”

“I was so much nicer before I met you. “

“Please stop thinking of you for five seconds and listen to me… I don’t think I’m going to be ok this time.”

“Everytime I see people laughing and having fun, I get jealous. I’m still waiting for the day I feel that way again”

“I don’t smile anymore.”

“If I had get over you will be a hard trek through rough terrain. But still I’m looking forward to the challenge.”

“I waited for you to show up and object. But you never came.”

“I don’t paint anymore.”

“Sometimes, just sometimes, even I believe I could do better than you.”

“I’m scared that if I left you, they’d be no one else. Ever.”

“I can’t express how much you mean to me”

“The best feeling in the world is knowing I proved them all wrong.”

“Just because I try not to talk about it, doesn’t mean that I’m over it, that I feel better or that I’m ever going to be ok.”

“I regret trusting you.”

“I wish I could take back what I said to you. Even though I meant it. Every word.”